I am so lonely and fustred?

i don't have a lot of family or any friends i have a sister but she totally let me down big time so we are not speaking anymore i am a stay at home mom who have being in a relationship with this man for 10 years and the relationship is dieing he sleeps on the sofa while i sleep in the bed we don't talk at all i am a good person who just need to be loved and appreciated i don't get to go out and do fun stuff i depend on him for everything i long for someone to just love me and care for me it's being so long i felt appreciated i wish i could just be happy everyone i have ever know has let me down and used me for whatever i wish i wish i wish i could just find someone to help me out and love me not just want to use me i am an emotional reck i wish i wish i wish i could find a way out please pray for me and anyone who have a kind word to motivate me i would realy appreciate it no mean comments please i am already sad and down thanks